I had it all figured out as a child All I wanted to do is play Nowadays I just sit and wait Its all right, its okay It’s alright, it’s okay It’s alright It’s alright, it’s okay All I wanted to do is play Its alright, its okay I will - sit down right here and wait Too easy, it comes natural to me I dont really need to play No sweat, I’ll wait Open chest Soft heart Inverted insides See-thru. But I’m here Clean.

My fists                                                                                          resist I'm getting nothing of it right I bought a new fit well, nothing sits quite right                                                                                                           guessing ahead, but guess what                                          I'm guessing nothing of it right   My tongue has been bleeding for a while now internally I am crushed GAD burned the house down                                        but the maniac built it right up ------ It’s like you’ve naturalized our disappearance; We’re in these public spaces that we haven’t been allowed to be in for decades And we’re actually showing you what love looks like in public-----   pink and blue on the playground                                         breath in, breath out, quite profound devotion in its purest form colorfully bruised underneath those clothes   consecrated work life performance sacred, we abide meritocracy, in its purest form societal lukewarm chloroform   fight off idle stillness that cost-efficient hybris breath in, breath out, quite profound one day I'm gonna burn down   that boredom cloaked in happiness crooked cost analysis breath in, breath out, quite profound one day I'm gonna burn you -                                                                                                                             lists ticked, self praised affirmations said and I am still inside hunger seeping through all four walls oozing through my windows and pushing drops through pores   Soaked, clenching, bare feeling, bare feeding, naked eating right from a spoon that's been in everybody's mouth 
i can taste everything, i can taste every fucking soul and I am still being told to keep my feet still, maintain self-control?   breath in, breath out breath, so careless, isn't that quite profound?   fuck your idle stillness that cost-efficient hybris breath in, breath out, quite profound one day I'm gonna burn down   that boredom cloaked in happiness crooked cost analysis breath in. breathe out.

I am Not mine Multiplying Watching freaks enjoy the ride Fright Not mine Cristallizing Cold sweats soaks up all sunlight Well, please open up that door Suck some air in Take a good step back Then leap forward to dive in We can keep you warm with all kinds of wonder: Fresh fruit, sparkling juices and a sense of yonder Follow me along Through the gallery of hearts Take a lush deep dive but please do not fall Some kind souls they lay here bare, on the floor And if you’ll look close enough You will see right to their core Over 20 years of learning not to die and not to care All the literal little wishes, they blaze up into the air And the sky tightly embellished With all those I could not spare Its overcast with richest ornaments Of their powdered brilliant glare If my fingertips could reach out Through the clouds into the air I’d find fulfillment in collecting The brittle truth that it is all right There A tingling feeling that is fact In all the little things I know A heavy heart is the effect Of the love I used to grow We’re all so small and so miniscule But we are born in sooth With genuine speaking voices They slowly fade with our youth If I can sense your warming skin I can gladly strip it down Melting rational bodies So we do finally belong And it belongs